When I Cried In My Car

And the leaf blower’s continue to blow — stay at home order: be productive in reflection (and write some cards).

This morning upon hearing that familiar noise from before the world stopped (and for the first time being grateful for it because it points to life, as in, LIFE is still here and things [us?] yes, us, we are [still] growing), I remembered the many times after Dino’s accident and death when I was pulled over in my car crying, thinking to myself, everyone who is passing by or who will see me today, don’t know…they don’t know what’s happened or is happen-ING and even if they do, they and life continue to speed on by —

Shouldn’t the world stop or move slower when someone’s heart breaks, I thought.

💔

Today, we’ve all been pulled over by life and I don’t ever want to rush by or be oblivious in any of the ways I potentially was before to the pains/realities/needs/cries of those near or far (this includes Mother Earth).

I can do better.

I want to continue to, not just look the person in the eyes who is working the cashier at the store, but refer to them by the name on his or her tag given to them by love (pausing as I say it ~ is there anything more I want to say or ask them?), asking how someone is, not out of habit “how are you?” “good”, ok, next on the checklist), but out of a true desire to know and with an additional three more minutes than the three I had to hear a more full truth (pausing again ~ is there anything more I want to say or ask them?), looking at the plastic on the ground at the beach (pausing ~ is there anything more here, there, within me or within my home I can change?)…

That’s what’s most productive now and anytime, maybe — to keep pausing, even when inconvenient…to keep reflecting and seeing the truth of what and who lives around us, even when it hurts…to continue asking and asking questions to ourselves galore, because then might we just stumble on the answer?

❤️

#pulledoverbylife
#stayathomeorder
#creativeheroine

Make happiness (or peace or gentleness) your business — especially now during quarantine.

Life is good,

 

 

 

Michelle Ghilotti
Success Designer, Brand Activator & Social Entrepreneur 

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