As Bill Plotkin PhD says in one of my favorite books, I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life…
The vision quest last year made it up there with Nolan’s birth and the day, after a couple months dating, that I decided NOT to break it off with Josh, feeling we might only be friends (I’ve never since felt so good to be so wrong, btw).
During the nine days and especially during the four spent on my own without food or shelter, I felt it an honor to get to spend time with myself in that way.
On the last day, sooo dirty and cleaner emotionally than I had been in years, I didn’t want to come home (I now know this is a common response for people post-quest).
— big for me to say/feel as I revel in being a part of what home means with Josh and Nolan, but it had everything to do with the ability to slow it all down to the pace of presence and to see minute by minute, hour by hour and nightfall by nightfall, that I was ok and that, as I’ve shared before, though I was alone, I was not lonely.
**It was not at all like a retreat and yet it was a deep retreat into learning to hold high sensation without crumbling…**
I realized early on in the experience and through the ecopsychology apprenticeship (brand and business coach goes rogue) that if I allowed my thoughts and worries — mainly about mountain lions and bears —to run the mental show that the show would be over; that I’d be walking down the mountain calling it quits.
And isn’t that what we are ALL doing in the wild of our own homes right now? Maybe/hopefully/sometimes or some *minutes* learning to stay present during the many confronting moments we each have these days, without cowering?
It’s wild out there — but what I know for sure is that our innate strength is even more wild!!
(I’m ready to bring you ladies out here with me and do “business” and create relationship/romance and motherhood from THIS place)
Let’s make happiness your business by creating your authentic brand…
To the best of the rest of your life.
Life is good.