It feels good to start out slow sharing about the vision quest. I’m holding a lot of it close to my heart…
I’ll share more as time moves through me, but as I leave today with my newly minted 14-year-old sun to Guatemala, my birthland, I think back to how much the reunion with him and Josh meant to me exactly one week ago.
They drove 4 1/2 hours to pick me up and Josh was the first out of the car. We ran to each other and hugged.
We started to cry. In my ear as he held me tightly, he said, “I can tell you now…I was so worried about you ~ that you might be suffering.”
My response was, “You were? It was awesome, babe. I loved it.”
We stayed like that for a bit. With joyful quest and reunion tears still coming down, I asked about Nolan. Josh started to walk back to the car, but Nolan had already gotten out…
We, too, did a slight run to each other and hugged tightly. To make sure he immediately knew how I felt (I didn’t know if he had worried like Josh did, though he had told me he knew I had this), in *his* ear, with the leftover quiver from my embrace with his Papa, I said, “Nolie, it was SO awesome, sooo awesome!”
He smiled his quiet smile and kept holding me.
After we pulled away, I looked at him a little longer and told him he had gotten even taller in the nine days away.
I put my head back on his shoulder and he continued to hug me like a tall person does a shorter person when they really love them.
I needed a day to start sharing my experience with them, so the next day I showed them some photos I was able to take and took them through my vision quest story as best I could with our limited vocabulary. We all sat comfortably up against pillows on Josh and my bed.
About an hour later, as we were in Nolan’s room, I leaned down to give him a hug and kiss good night, he held onto me longer and quietly said:
“I’m proud of you, Mama.”
I squeezed him back in response and laid there with him. It is such an amazing feeling to have your “baby” both see you and hold you.
He continued ~
“Over the last year or so I’ve realized again that you’re much more than my mama. You’re…(long pause).”
I couldn’t help it: “A badass chick?”
“Yes, a badass chick.”
What the quest reminded me of in that very moment, as many other things have in my life as his mama is that whatever you do for yourself, you are always (always) also doing for your family…
Focus on your happiness to raise happiness.
Make happiness your business by creating your authentic brand… enjoy your business, enjoy your life!
Life is good,
Success Designer, Brand Activator & Social Entrepreneur